Chapter 95

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Translated by Sylph

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I organized Seon Ahyun’s laborious explanation.

“So… you turned it on to try and at least say hello, but you suddenly got scared and turned it off.”

“……Ye, yes.”

“What part was scary?”

“P-People… seemed like they w-would hate it.”

“If they hate it, they won’t watch.”

“…They, they cursed.”

“Hmm, did you see it in the real-time comments?”

Seon Ahyun nodded his head vigorously.

‘It seems some other crazy person went in as soon as the alarm came and muttered some bullshit.’

I didn’t know why there were so many people who tried to hurt others by grinding their own lives.

‘It’s frustrating.’

Anyway, Seon Ahyun certainly saw curses of a nonsensical level even when appearing in Idol Inc.

The fact that it burst this time after enduring well then was probably because the event at the fan signing event became a trigger.

‘The fact that the comments pop up in real-time also seems to have had an effect.’

He must have felt like he heard it directly to his face.

I massaged his shoulders and said.

“Even if it’s not necessarily this job… you can’t absolutely meet only people who like you. Someone will hate you. And there will also be people who just find it fun to curse at others.”

“…….”

“Of course it feels bad. It’s something that can be scary… but if it’s scary enough to quit, I think it might be better to get some help after all.”

“…!”

“Wouldn’t it be better to receive counseling now? Activities are in the wrapping-up stage now.”

“I-It’s okay.”

Why was he being so stubborn?

I narrowed my eyes.

“I think you just don’t want to receive counseling.”

“…It, it was useless.”

Seon Ahyun squeezed his eyes shut.

“P-Previously… this, s-stuttering, I fixed it…… but, again it’s l-like this.”

“…….”

“It, it’s useless.”

Seon Ahyun hung his head low.

“I, I have to keep l-living like this…….”

“……?”

What kind of extreme talk was that again?

“Didn’t you just… meet a quack?”

“…! Q-Quack…….”

“And I didn’t mean you must fix the stuttering, but that it would be better if you at least worried less.”

“…….”

“If you can’t believe me, shall I call the other kids and put it to a vote.”

“…?!”

Fortunately, it seemed he had no particular trauma regarding things like this, so I conducted a survey under Seon Ahyun’s dazed agreement.

First, Ryu Chungwoo.

“I can’t say it carelessly… but for any kind of task, it’s good to try rehabilitation steadily. For now, don’t give up until a conclusion is reached. You thought well.”

“……Ye, yes.”

Next, Lee Sejin and Kim Raebin. They were looking at the fan song comments in the living room.

“Heol, you should definitely try meeting another doctor. If you tell the company, they’ll probably introduce a famous doctor? There are many who came after working at other agencies.”

“I don’t think you can generalize with one case you experienced in advance. I think credibility will arise only if you try comparative analysis up to at least five.”

“I, i, is that s-so……”

Cha Yujin, who was in the kitchen, didn’t understand the word ‘quack’ well. I asked again after explaining the meaning.

“Throw away the quack! Meet a new doctor!”

“…….”

Somehow it was like a summary of a daily drama plot, but it was clear and simple.

Finally… I asked Lee Sejin who was lying on the bed.

An unexpectedly serious answer returned.

“…It’s a world of difference for each doctor. There are people who make you wonder if they receive money for saying this kind of talk… and there are good people.”

“Ye, yes.”

“It’s better to do it in a way of changing quickly if it doesn’t fit. ……I haven’t received it for long either, but.”

And after hesitating, Lee Sejin added softly.

“…Do your best.”

“…!! Ye, yes!”

It was an unexpected support fire.

Now, the investigation was finished with this. I crossed my arms and asked again.

“How about it.”

Seon Ahyun, perhaps his heart was moved quite a bit this time, agonized while groaning.

And soon, he clenched his two fists and said.

“……Th, then… when the a-activities end, I’ll tell them right away.”

“Will you? Okay.”

“……Ye, yes!”

“Send it to your parents like that.”

“Eeeeh?!”

It was clear that he would push it back again once the schedule approached.

I sat in place and waited until Seon Ahyun contacted his parents to inform them about the counseling plan.

Since he said it himself, Seon Ahyun eventually sent a text while sweating, and his parents sent a reply in an instant.

Like that, Seon Ahyun’s counseling schedule was successfully set.

“Good job.”

“Uh, uhhhh……”

He had an expression of being stunned at what on earth this situation was. I patted his back once and returned to my room.

And that evening, I received an unexpected thank-you call from Seon Ahyun’s parents.

Apparently, Seon Ahyun told them that I persuaded him.

‘…Necessarily?’

It was a bit embarrassing.

-Thank you. Since we… um, there’s a realm we can’t do anything about…….

Perhaps their throat was choked, as after the sound of refining their voice a few times was heard, the thank-you greeting continued again.

“No. I just brought it up.”

-Even so.

…Afterwards, as I overheard in passing, it seemed Seon Ahyun had heard verbal abuse like ‘you’ll keep living like that’ several times right after the recurrence.

I could bet my balance that it was definitely at school. Although I didn’t have much.

‘As expected, peer relationships were the problem……’

Anyway, I finished the call with Seon Ahyun’s parents with appropriate politeness.

Really, I experienced all sorts of things.

I leaned my arms on the balcony railing I came out to for a quiet call, and felt the summer wind.

‘……Tired, and cool.’

Group life after a long time was ending like that.

* * *

The last music show was finished well without major problems.

“Everyone likes shorts.”

“I-It was good because it’s e-easy to move.”

I also liked it because it was cool.

I thought Lee Sejin, who had a kneeling movement at the end, might have had a bit of a different thought though.

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[Hello Loviewer.
I’m Park Moondae (puppy emoticon)
This is today’s costume. (photo) (photo)]
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After uploading the last group photo to SNS, I felt like the first activities had truly ended.

“It’s vacation from tomorrow.”

“Excited~”

“I’ll be able to go down after a long time.”

At Ryu Chungwoo’s words, everyone had excited expressions.

That’s right. The agency gave a vacation as they said in the media play.

Exactly four days.

‘A guy living in the province will just go down, eat, and rest, and that’ll be it.’

Still, I thought that was something. While I had overheard while preparing for music shows, it seemed there were plenty of people who didn’t give any at all and made them prepare for the next album.

And as soon as the commercial filming was finished that evening, the TeSTAR members who arrived at the dormitory skipping a meal already left for their homes one by one with the luggage they had prepared.

“Then everyone, see you in a few days~”

“See you!”

“Let’s see each other in a healthy state.”

“A, ah, bye……”

In the midst of that, Seon Ahyun, perhaps because he was extremely concerned about going for counseling, disappeared while creaking.

Thud. Beep-boop.

The front door closed.

Like that, I remained alone in the dormitory.

‘…It’s so sweet.’

Thinking about spending four days while using this wide place quietly alone, I felt like my stamina was already filling up.

I let out a long sigh of relief and lay down on the sofa.

‘First I’ll lie down a bit and then get up, eat, and do the detailed monitoring that’s been delayed……’

…I thought up to that and fell fast asleep.

And that evening.

Awakening in the living room, I realized that something was wrong.

My body wouldn’t move.

It was exactly the same symptom I had experienced after the first filming of Idol Inc.

It meant I had caught a terrible body ache.

‘…I’m going to die.’

It even got worse. It felt like my brain was ripening.

At first I tried to do something, but soon realized it wasn’t a situation for that.

‘How is even watching TV difficult.’

I turned off the TV where the WeTube screen was flowing with a heavy hand.

I was going to monitor the trailer of Episode 1 of filmed with Cheongryeo, but I didn’t know what I had seen. My head was throbbing.

‘…Let’s report the fever.’

Beep.

[38.8℃]

Crazy.

I rummaged through the container where I found the thermometer and found pain-relieving antipyretics. And for now, I chewed and ate them.

It was damn bitter. But after a while, the pain subsided a bit.

Then more productive thoughts became possible.

‘…The manager is also resting.’

For now, it wasn’t to the point of contacting the company. It’s just that the tension in the body was released and the problems accumulated through overwork burst.

‘…For now… should I recuperate my body during the vacation.’

It was the same as resting anyway, but resting because of pain hadn’t been such a pleasant thing. It was a pity but there was no choice.

‘Let’s make porridge in advance while I have energy.’

I roughly made white porridge with instant rice, and after taking a few spoonfuls, I lay down on the bed.

And I started monitoring while the medicine’s effect was still there.

‘First… from the stage reactions.’

The individual fan cams of the comeback stage uploaded on Music Bomb already accumulated quite a bit of views. Perhaps a subtle competition broke out among individual fans.

[(MBomb Fancam) TeSTAR Park Moondae Magic Boy / 1.12 million]

‘…I also surpassed a million views.’

It was worth working on the dance. I smiled faintly and clicked the video.

-Please see our genius puppy who’s now also good at dancing… Everyone let’s Park Moondae-ing… ㅠㅠ
-Park Moondae-ya, you’re practicing while sleeping, right? ㅠㅠ I’m worried you’ll do it without sleeping like during Idol Inc. time. You have to do it while resting well and eating well ㅠㅠ
-Wow, truly feeling proud. Is this the 1st place pride?
-In each movement, there are a bit of details from the dance members.. Just what kind of practice did you do, Park Moondae-ssi…

It just rubbed off on me naturally because we did it all together. Since I have no basic skills.

‘Still, the feeling is good.’

I guessed people ended up throwing their lives into work, work-life balance be damned, for that kind of taste.

Hmm, there were also quite a few English comments, but my brain wasn’t working well so they didn’t get read into my eyes. I moved on to the next item.

That was something I was doing periodically… but it was work I hadn’t been able to do much for the past few days because there were many other things.

Let’s search for ‘Park Moondae’ on SNS.

‘……’

Just like last time, videos, photos, and fan art poured out.

Honestly, it didn’t really feel real that so many people were interested in me.

But there was the fun of looking into them one by one. I slowly lowered the timeline and examined what they were saying.

Then I also discovered some quite peculiar ones.

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Park Moondae TeSTAR Park Moondae Idol Inc.
Park Moondae please do blonde hair again your black hair doesn’t suit you at all please do blonde! Why did you return to black hair after going through the trouble of dyeing it ㅠ It’s hair that would grow black even if left alone anyway please do blonde
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“…….”

The will that they desperately wanted me to search and see pierced through the screen powerfully.

Below that, people who were stopping them from doing such things and people who were fighting were busy.

“Really.”

A hollow laugh came out. I decided I should change the hair color by receiving votes or something for the next album.

“Next is……”

Had I said it with my mouth just then?

I blinked my eyes and looked at the smartphone screen. It seemed a bit blurry…….”

My head was hurting. It seemed the medicine’s effect had suddenly drained out.

‘Shit.’

It was damn hard, really.

I was buried in the bed with a hazy mind. I didn’t know. It would be a bit better after taking a nap…….

The thought was cut off there.

* * *

My body was heavy. It seemed I had been pressed by a nightmare.

…I heard a voice.

“…Park Moondae-ya? Hey! Park Moondae!!”

“……!”

At that moment, my mind came back vividly.